My children have been learning alot about obedience lately. With a 4 year old and a 2 year old, there is a certain amount of hard-headedness that is a part of their personalities. On some days, I think they are miniature Frank Sinatra's and could sing every word of "I did it my way"! One of my sisters told me about what she's been dealing with when it comes to her own spiritual obedience and someone with whom she's had a difficult time with. (The name of the person has been changed.) I thought I'd share it here.
"I’m been going through a bible study by Priscilla Shirer and it’s on “Discerning the Voice of God”. It’s about obedience whenever God requires something from you. I was doing the very last lesson today at noon and God said to "Call *Jane*". All through this study, I’ve been saying “Sure God, I want to be obedient because I want to live in your will.” Well, I wasn’t expecting God to require that. For 1 ½ hours, I struggled with what I was supposed to say. Finally at 2pm, I called and it sounded like her fax machine picked up. My heart was pounding something awful. About 2:30pm I called again—same thing. I had been eating a few chocolate kisses left over from Valentines Day and after I made the 2nd call, the piece of paper sticking out of the kiss read “Way to Go”. I was so blown away!!! Most of the papers had read “I love you” or “I like you”. Those were the only messages I’ve seen in the kisses that I’ve eaten for several weeks now. But, that one read “Way to Go”. I have no idea if God really wanted me to talk with *Jane* or if He wanted to see if I would obey. Guess I’ll see where God leads."
Why are we so hesitant to obey what God asks of us? Is it because we are afraid of rejection? Saying the wrong thing? Failure? Isaiah 54:17 says, "No weapon formed against me shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against me in judgement I shall show to be in the wrong. This is my inheritance because I am a servant of the Lord." God is not looking for us to impress Him. However, He is looking for an obedient heart. If we are obedient to whatever He has asked us to do, He takes care of the rest and His word says if we are a "servant of the Lord", we will want to do what is right.